Sometimes I think its just better not to say anything. Has los yuav tsis zoo abtsis lawm tes ua ib sab....lol http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wrhau7fVfSU

OK..i was sick..i meant literally F*uck up sick to my head.  Can't even get out of my bed for the last 1 1/2 week.  Was in bed sweating and under the blanket.  Been drinking hot green tea and having noodle soups.  For those that was sick before, you know the feelings.  The feeling of being weak. The feeling of dying..haha...And of course, the feeling of "Cant' do jack shit"...:P~.  Oh well, i finally gotten better this week and today, i've decided to hit the gym again.  OMG....for you folks..please do not torture or over-work yourself at the gym after getting off a flu/sickness...hahhaa.....My body isn't gear for a hardcore workout after getting over a flu.  I can honestly say..i can feel the soredness all over my body..hehe.  I'll be sored for a several days. 
Alright, like i've said..i went to the gym today at 1 p.m.  Thought it was going to be a great day at the gym and push myself.  So, i pushed myself to the limit.  Was doing free weights for the last 45 minutes....Below is my starter..haha

45 lbs - 85 lbs Barbells chest press  (5 sets, 10 reps)
130 lbs bench press ( 5 sets, 10 reps)
120 lbs shoulder press ( 3 sets, 12 reps)
65 lbs tricep press ( 5 sets, 10 reps)

The rest of the other 15 minutes..i was doing crunches....Got to get back on the ABS...haha..It's all about the ABS folks...Then for the last 30 minutes, i was sweating myself in the Sauna...Sitting in the sauna does help me get well quicker.  i still have the coughs but oh boy..was i sweating hard inside the sauna..hahah...Good thing though.

Last but not least....hey everyone..if anyone are interested in going on a vacation with me next year....either a cruise or a 7 day trip to Bora Bora, do let me know so i can plan ahead of time. I hate the last minute thingy....lolz.  However, a European vacation trip would be nice also...but i've lived there for 6 months already in Germany.  Hey..anything works for me...:P~...GROUP VACATION, YEAH!! LOL

There's an earth-bound angel alone in the dark again tonight.  Tears in her eyes slide down her face.  She sits on her bed fighting the night, wanting only to be an impossibility.   To sleep forever never to awaken.  A peace so far out of reach, she cries every night a silent wish.  No one will hear a prayer sent up to the heavens wanting simply to disappear.  Only she knows her purpose in this place.  She's here for one reason only, to be there for the rest to use.  They only see her as what they need.  Someone to talk to during their trials.  She is just an angel that they do not see.  She'll sit in the dark crying tears to herself.  Wishing she could do what they do but Earth is her personal hell.  She is something to everyone, yet not someone always alone never in company.  Does her pain come out?  The scars and tears are hidden.  Just a part of her job things no one sees.  She's been there for everyone.  A shoulder an ear or a hug.  Advices on loss of loved ones.  A problem child. A cheating spouse.  The death of pets or inevitable growing apart.  She gives counsel to the wounded and aid to the sick and those in love.  She'll take your pain and make it her own that you need not go through the hurt.  She'll bend and bend so others won't break.  Always letting others take the easy path.  They give up their wounds so that she can heal them like new.  Never asking for quarter during her own times of need.

I watch her these nights as she cries out the pain that she's made her own.  Lonely does not describe this angel sent down from above.  She's empathic and if she's your friend, thanks to her your burdens are lessened because she'll take your pain for you.  She'll go through the fires of hell so you won't have to.  The act of the tears she sheds in the dark alone each night are her way of making room for more pain and hurt from others like you.  She'll sit quietly and secretly wish that she did not have to endure all of the rain.  Yet while she'll pray for everyone else's joy and happiness she would never think to ask for her own.  To her that would be wrong, to waste a prayer on herself when it would better be used to save someone else.  You see that she thinks of herself as unworthy the pain is hers to endure.  why would it be alright for her to want something better? A night without tears or a day without pain when she would much rather that you not have to suffer.  But if everyone who let her be their balm, if they would just take the time to see her hearts desire maybe someone would see that her truest secret wish, is for someone to be for her what she is to the rest of the world.  It would take just one, a very unique person to be a shoulder an ear or a hug when the angel has had simply too much - too much pain ache and despair, that her heart cannot rest and not enough tears she could shed, that would ever give her the peace of someone noticing her as she is and taking her from something that is used only when needed.  Then tossed aside like yesterday's rubbish that is not worth touching.  Sad if you think about it, that this angel goes without sleep because she cares too much for others to want the same thing for herself.  Just once for someone to take some of the hurt pain or anger and remind her that she's not just here for the job.  All it takes is for someone to love her the way she loves all others.  To show her the same unconditional emotion.  To take away some of her pain.  To stand up by her sidewhen she has to deal with the rain.  Yet as I watch over her I know it..s highly unlikely there exists another soul like hers.  Another heart so pure as to wish others never see hurt.  As it goes she's an earth bound angel the one her friends.  All know is there when they need her and not there when they're not in need.  They will all move on like they have done in the past and she will still go through a living hell here on earth to make sure that their happiness last.

In all the world, there is no one exactly like me.
There are persons who have some parts like me,
But no one adds up exactly like me.
Therefore, everything that comes out of me
Is authentically mine because I alone choose it.

I own everything about me
My body, including everything it does;
My mind, including all its thoughts and ideas;
My eyes, including the images of all they behold;
My feelings, whatever they may be...
Anger, joy, frustration, love, disappointment, excitement
My mouth, and all the words that come out of it
Polite, sweet or rough, correct or incorrect;
My voice, loud or soft.
And all my actions, whether they be to others or to myself.

I own my fantasies, my dreams, my hopes, my fears.
I own all my triumphs and successes,
All my failures and mistakes.

Because I own all of me I can become intimately acquainted with me.
By doing so I can love me and be friendly with me in all parts.
I can then make it possible for all of me to work in my best interests.

I know there are aspects about myself that puzzle me,
And other aspects that I do not know.
But as long as I am friendly and loving to myself,
I can courageously and hopefully, look for solutions to the puzzles
And for ways to find out more about me.

However I look and sound, whatever I say and do, and whatever I think
And feel at a given moment in time is me.
This is authentic and represents where I am in that moment in time.

When I review later how I looked and sounded, what I said and did,
And how I thought and felt, some parts may turn out to be unfitting.
I can discard that which is unfitting, and keep that which proved fitting,
And invent something new for that which I discarded.

I can see, hear, feel, think, say and do.
I have the tools to survive, to be close to others, to be productive,
And to make sense and order out of the world of people
And things outside of me.
I own me, and therefore I can engineer me.

I thought that i was living life i the fast lane but whoa, i got a shocker to tell on my trip to San Francisco...^_^.  By the way, check out the pictures...:)

Friday - Went to work at 5 p.m.  Didn't get off work till 2 a.m Saturday morning.  Didn't even slept at all.

Saturday - At 7 a.m, my younger brother Jay took me to the airport.  Boarded United Airline at 8:20 a.m, outbound to San Francisco.  At 9:45 a.m, landed in San Francisco International Airport.  Picked up my car rental at Payless Car Rental.  Drove to and arrived at my hotel destination at 10:30 a.m.  Hotel Diva wouldn't let me check in until 2 p.m.  However, i did let them stored my luggage away and valet parked my rental car.  From 11 a.m - 2 p.m, i was out and about at Union Square taking pictures since there was an Art Shows going on.  It was a sunny and beautiful that day. Hey, what can you say...i took the San Diego weather with me to SF..lolz.  The weirdest thing, well, maybe to be but not to the folks around SF but i've notice alot of guys holding each other's hand.  I don't experience that in San Diego but SF...i was sorta shocked.  Didn't bother me though because everyone chooses their sexuality and live their own life.  At 2.p.m, came back and got my room number (Rm #505).  Took a 30 minutes nap. Woke up and drove to Fisherman's Wharf.  Lots of people and great scenes.  I have the urges to grub down on some seafood..so i did.. I had Lobster and Steak, with clam chowder on the side.  And of course, a bottle of Samuel Adams and glass of pepsi...  Stay at Fisherman's Wharf till 7 p.m.  Came back to the hotel. Rested and catch t.v for a while.  Was gonna go to the CLUB SKYE (Explore Your Rhythm), but it was too darn pack. Too many people are standing in line.  Just decided to walk around Union Square and do some shopping around the area.  Close to midnight, came back and got me some Spicy Chicken Wings ..hmm..yummy!